So I thought today I would do a different kind of post , I feel like I need to change things around on my blog, put a bit of a personal touch to it and open up a little more. I want to change some things around mix my daily life into it and maybe start vlogging? I’ve been playing around with the idea of vlogging for a while and would love to dive into it , it comes across as the best form of getting to know people and what their pesonality is like.
So apart from trying out vlogging , I’ve also had some things going on in my life, I recently passed my Theory Test for driving and will be starting lessons soon. Driving is something that I really feel I need right now. I think it will give me some independence and freedom as I still live at home because my college is only 15 minutes away.
I suppose before I ramble about college I’ll let you guys know how I’ve been the past few months because I haven’t mentioned it to many people aside from my family, friends and boyfriend. I’ve been having extremely bad anxiety the past few months , and over that short time it has been growing worse. I would find it hard to do every day things , I couldn’t even go to a till to pay for things , I couldn’t answer a phone and I could barely hold a conversation with someone I barely knew. Anxiety is something that everyone deals with differently and for me it was a huge issue a few years ago and has crept back up on me now. I felt like everything was on top of me and that I couldn’t even see where my future was going and that I was just stuck in a rut. I decided that I need to take things slower and set little targets for myself. I have decided to cut my course down from 4 years to 3 , with an optional year at the end of the 3rd year incase I still want to continue on to get a degree. The course I am doing is something I no longer have an interest in , but when I found out I could do 3 years I jumped at the chance instead of giving it up completely.
After talking about college and discussing my options I found that everything was easing off I felt the cloud of anxiety that was following me was finally starting to go. My anxiety isn’t gone completely but I feel talking about the situation to the people closest to me really helped me deal with it.
On a lighter note , Halloween break was great , I finally was able to relax and not have to worry about assignments and work. I spent time with friends and had a chill week. My provisional license will be ariving some time this week so I’ll be starting my lessons once It arrives . My goal is to be able to drive before I go back to college next year so fingers crossed!
I would really love to know your ideas on vlogging , would you be interested in seeing some vlogs? drop me a comment below 🙂