Dealing with Change

I think it’s a little obvious that this post is going to be more of a personal one. It won’t take a genius to realise I have been so MIA on this blog for the past few months but hopefully some of the things I’ll be talking about in this post might just bring back my love for writing and beauty again.

I was never ever a huge lover of change. It’s something I could never really cope or deal with even from a young age , starting school was difficult from the age of 5  I never wanted to be there , I would chase my mum out the school door if it meant that I didn’t have to go. Of course that didn’t work. I hated secondary school for the same reason , unfamiliar surrondings , different people , room changes every 40 minutes it was a whole lot of change!

I obviously had to deal with those kinds of changes and I did. I met friends and hung out with them every weekend , had fun went to parties and it all didn’t seem too bad, I got by in secondary school and then it was time to leave. Another change. Everyone was leaving , all my friends were going to different colleges , but I was staying at my local college, I drifted with some friends , lost friends and gained new friends , I met my boyfriend before I started college and we have been together for almost 2 years now.

Time went by with the course I was doing and I wasn’t happy , it didn’t turn out to be what I expected and I felt like an absolute failure when I took the plunge to drop out , not too far behind me was my boyfriend who didn’t like his course either and decided to leave and try study for another course in a different college that was 9 hours away.

We spent the next year working hard , seeing each other almost every day and booking and planning our holiday to Paris ( if anyone would like a post about my experience in paris I would be happy to share it , to say it was quite the experience is an understatement!!) I almost forgot that he would be moving to the opposite side of the country from me. My boyfriend is my best friend we tell each other everything and keep no secrets so to have him move away was a big deal for me.

Fast forward to two weeks ago , he got his results , he got what he needed and now today he is travelling 9 hours in a car to go to college. I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t devistated, but I am also the proudest girlfriend in the world he put in so much work and he got what he wanted! I need to get over my fear of change , its the fear of the unknown and worry of what might happen before it even has the chance to happen!

 

So how did all this mess deal with me not being able to write on my blog and why did it stop me from doing what I love doing? well… I guess the past few months I wasn’t really myself I was preparing for change and I honestly had no clue what I wanted to do everything was everywhere and my job wasn’t the best. I suppose I didn’t want to throw myself into something I love when I was down or upset in fear that I would begin to hate it. I hope to start back on this blog , a fresh new start. I wasn’t feeling happy in myself and I felt like I wasn’t amounting to anything there has been some very very down days but I’m slowly but surely coming around to myself.

I just want to let you know that you are beautiful and you can achieve so much more than you think you can just by setting your mind to it. This was really something I needed to hear a year ago because I had so much self doubt. I start my makeup artistry course on the 14th of september and I couldn’t be anymore happier to be doing something I finally love and enjoy

 

Thank you so much for reading today , I promise I will be back with another post maybe on my trip to Paris? I love you all .

 

xoxo

Rachael

Moving Forward in Life.

Hi Everyone

So I’ve been debating whether to write this post for a while now , or just completely leaving it. I decided what the heck and here I am now , writing a long winded post yet again. I know I’ve been very distant on this part of the internet for a while now , since last year really, but I feel more like myself now than I ever did.

From past posts you’ll realise that I left college and took time off to decide what I really wanted to do with my life , I found a job and started earning a decent income that kept me going. I have always had a fair idea of what I wanted to do in life and it was always going to be with makeup. I have ALWAYS wanted to work with makeup , I just love that makeup can change a persons mood for the better and I adore seeing people happy and thats what I really want to do in life. For a while it looked like it wasn’t really going to happen , a lot of people told me that its not a sufficient job , there’s no real calling for makeup artists out there these days and that anyone could be one. I think thats what really put me down in the dumps the past few months , since I felt like that dream that I really wanted to make a reality was never going to be in my reach.

The past few days I really pushed myself to fall back in love with the idea , and its worked , I think that the little push really just showed me that this is what I want to do in life , and I CAN make it my career. I’ve decided to research different schools around me that will help me with my career different courses and class that I may be interested in too. and just really push myself and ignore what other people are saying.

 

I find that you really need the passion and drive to have a career in something artistic or different , you really need to ignore the negative and think of the positive and there is always going to be people criticising your work , or just you as a person. I think that this week past has just taught me that I want to become a makeup artist more than I’ve ever wanted to and I’m willing to do whatever it takes. Not to sound supper sappy but no goal is ever out of reach , only you can determine whether or not you can or can’t achieve something!

 

I also have set a goal to start using this platform more , I’ve been ignoring it for months and only now have I found the passion to actually get right back into it

 

you can follow me on Twitter and Instagram if you want to see what I get up to

xoxo

Rachael

 

 

Update // Getting back into the Swing of Things

Hello Everyone!
It’s me , the person who couldn’t update her blog for a VERY VERY long time! I suppose life got in the way , and I’m not going to lie , I’ve been incredibly lazy too , so much has gone on these past few months , that I felt I needed to take a breather and collect my thoughts and go from there.

I suppose the first thing I want to address , is the direction I want to take my blog , I’ve never had a schedule , a set time when I would post so I want to try my hardest now to set one , I’m starting a new job next week so I’ll know roughly when I’ll be able to post and get new content up then. I feel extremely embarrassed that I haven’t posted in so long.I also purchased a lot of Makeup Revolution items and I’m thinking on doing a haul or review on some of them , let me know down below if you would like to see that.

Secondly , I FINALLY go out of the course I hated. If you didn’t already know I was doing applied computing in college and absolutely hated it! It wasn’t for me and I just didn’t see myself doing it. That brings me on to my next topic! Next Year I will be training to become A MAKEUP ARTIST! It’s always been my dream to become a makeup artist but I was always told I needed to get a “proper” degree first , after a loooooong sit down with my parents , they knew I wasn’t happy with what I was doing and instead of making me go through something I hated , they understood and let me drop out to do something I loved.

So right now I’ll be working full time , trying to save up for a car and also working towards getting a qualification in becoming a makeup artist , I have a lot more time now too to write my blog without worrying about exams and papers , so hopefully I’ll be straight back at it!

 

thanks so much for reading guys you can follow me on Twitter and Instagram to see what I got up to during my extremely long break

xoxo

Rachael

 

Where have I been?

It’s me! I’ve returned! I’m so sorry for not posting the past week or more , I’ve been extremely busy! I’m in search for a new job and even with the experience needed it’s hard it get ahold of! Passing out cv’s can be extremely tiring! I’m hoping to have a good post up in a few hours to get me stuck back into my blog.

Do you have any requests? Or would like a product reviewed? Drop me a comment 

xoxo

Rachael