Dealing with Change

I think it’s a little obvious that this post is going to be more of a personal one. It won’t take a genius to realise I have been so MIA on this blog for the past few months but hopefully some of the things I’ll be talking about in this post might just bring back my love for writing and beauty again.

I was never ever a huge lover of change. It’s something I could never really cope or deal with even from a young age , starting school was difficult from the age of 5  I never wanted to be there , I would chase my mum out the school door if it meant that I didn’t have to go. Of course that didn’t work. I hated secondary school for the same reason , unfamiliar surrondings , different people , room changes every 40 minutes it was a whole lot of change!

I obviously had to deal with those kinds of changes and I did. I met friends and hung out with them every weekend , had fun went to parties and it all didn’t seem too bad, I got by in secondary school and then it was time to leave. Another change. Everyone was leaving , all my friends were going to different colleges , but I was staying at my local college, I drifted with some friends , lost friends and gained new friends , I met my boyfriend before I started college and we have been together for almost 2 years now.

Time went by with the course I was doing and I wasn’t happy , it didn’t turn out to be what I expected and I felt like an absolute failure when I took the plunge to drop out , not too far behind me was my boyfriend who didn’t like his course either and decided to leave and try study for another course in a different college that was 9 hours away.

We spent the next year working hard , seeing each other almost every day and booking and planning our holiday to Paris ( if anyone would like a post about my experience in paris I would be happy to share it , to say it was quite the experience is an understatement!!) I almost forgot that he would be moving to the opposite side of the country from me. My boyfriend is my best friend we tell each other everything and keep no secrets so to have him move away was a big deal for me.

Fast forward to two weeks ago , he got his results , he got what he needed and now today he is travelling 9 hours in a car to go to college. I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t devistated, but I am also the proudest girlfriend in the world he put in so much work and he got what he wanted! I need to get over my fear of change , its the fear of the unknown and worry of what might happen before it even has the chance to happen!

 

So how did all this mess deal with me not being able to write on my blog and why did it stop me from doing what I love doing? well… I guess the past few months I wasn’t really myself I was preparing for change and I honestly had no clue what I wanted to do everything was everywhere and my job wasn’t the best. I suppose I didn’t want to throw myself into something I love when I was down or upset in fear that I would begin to hate it. I hope to start back on this blog , a fresh new start. I wasn’t feeling happy in myself and I felt like I wasn’t amounting to anything there has been some very very down days but I’m slowly but surely coming around to myself.

I just want to let you know that you are beautiful and you can achieve so much more than you think you can just by setting your mind to it. This was really something I needed to hear a year ago because I had so much self doubt. I start my makeup artistry course on the 14th of september and I couldn’t be anymore happier to be doing something I finally love and enjoy

 

Thank you so much for reading today , I promise I will be back with another post maybe on my trip to Paris? I love you all .

 

xoxo

Rachael

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ShopMissA Haul & Experience

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Hi Everyone!

I recieved my ShopMissA delivery yesterday and decided to do a little post and show you all what I go , I got a few accessories and things but I thought I would stick to the makeup for today. I also want to tell you about my experience with them as a company.

I’ll start with my experience, the wesbite is pretty much easy to manage and easy to get around , apart when it comes to the shade/colour picking of each product , I remember clicking on a lipstick and a certain colour that I wanted, but when I had ordered it , it had changed and I got a crappy lime green lipstick instead? I emailed them 3 minutes later asking them would they mind changing the order , but I got an email back saying that their company actually doesn’t have any connections with the warehouse that makes up the deliveries?? WHAT??!??!!? I didn’t really care too much since it was only 1 dollar , but the fact they weren’t helpful really annoyed me and sort of swept it under the mat and ignored me then was a little rude of them.

Okay! Onto the haul! I picked up quite a few lipsticks because I wanted to step out of my comfort zone a little and mix it up I didn’t include the crappy lime lipstick in this because I literally felt sick looking at it , its a disgusting colour and shall probably be going in the bin haha I would never even think of passing on such a rotten colour!

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I got two Elf Lipsticks In Posh and Classy, I swatched this the minute I got them , and I’m impressed so far with their formulation and pigmentation! big thumbs up from me!

I then got 2 LA Colour lipsticks, I got Red Tango and Nude , I like these colours , they aren’t very pigmented and are quite glossy something I wouldn’t of necessarily went for , but for a dollar you can’t go wrong and its always something I can venture back to and mix up with another lippie.

I also purchased an Elf eyebrow kit because I’ve heard this raved about on youtube and wanted to give it a go myself , I swatched the wax and the powder and I love it already , I got the shade in Light because any other shades I get end up far too dark for me , and this one is a perfect match.

The blush I got was from the brand Prism, a brand I have never ever heard of but the colour of the blush caught my eye , I really love it , it is quite subtle but I can build it up quite a bit , the only thing I hate is the packaging its so cheap and flimsy I feel it will break the minute I try to openning it.

The last thing I bought was a Elf eyeshadow quad I got the shade Butternut , The colours in this are sooo pretty and really compliment green eyes , I’m all into warm tones so when I seen this I had to have it!

As I said before these were all 1 dollar, If you see a product you would like reviewed or swatched don’t hesitate to leave me a comment below and I’ll get right to it.

Hope you enjoyed my little post guys , If I’m completely honest I don’t know if I would order from ShopMissA again , I’m being  honest and saying that I really was only blown away by some of these products and they were mostly the elf ones , It cost me a total of 18.00 including delivery, This was just my opinion , maybe you had a better experience but I just wanted to share my thoughts

Have you ordered from ShopMissA? what are your thoughts? I would love to hear from you all , drop me a comment down below.

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xoxo

Rachael